Megan Frodsham PVHS XC STS

Spent the whole day in Zion..planned on running when I got home (we were gonna be home at like 2 or 3) yeah I got home at like 10:30.. That is 16 hours of hiking!!!!! Repelling was the coolest thing ever!

3 am... I was hurting. Too much pounding on my knees from hiking. My whole body hurt.

Well that was prolly the worst race I have ever ran. I don't think I have ever hurt that bad when running. I kinda wanted to scream or cry or die.

Went and got an ultra sound in mark's room. taped and gave him my whole spill. He said it was most likely a flare and will go down. Said it will keep getting worse until Friday.

Spent forever waiting for Mark to get back from giving concussion tests. Different tape job which I liked alot better after heat packs which I think worked better than the ultra sound.

Did the warm up for the workout and thought I was gonna be okay but as soon as I pushed at all my knees didn't agree and I just ran some slow and went into mark's. Left my ice on way too long..kinda hurt.

The Dumb ACT took over my morning and we went to watch michael play football in cedar. I did a quick 3 before we left for 6 hours of 8th grade football. It was the middle of the afternoon and I thought I was going to pass out due to the hot st. g sun! On the bright side- very little pain from my knees. I kept my tape on but don't think it'll last much longer.

Well that was the devil. Did some 30 sec on the track, 800's and then kinda 1000's.. I struggled. Had the hardest time staying positive..I can do okay to push on my own when I drop off the speed demons but I just didn't today...feeling negative and I know it is bad..working on it.

lesson learned today.. don't wait a week and a half to blog cuz you forget stuff!

AM: I was so on time and I picked two people up..I was so proud :) Weird pain in my leg..not sure what it is.

PM: time trial..I just don't know. Hurt so bad but I let it run my race which hurt me mentally and emotionally almost more. Went straight into mark's.. he felt really bad for teasing me about it ealier cuz I was crying. I just sat on the table with ice things on my legs and tried not to fall into a complete emotional wreck. He messed around with my foot trying to conect it with the pain in my leg. He isn't sure. There is a muscle on the outside of both shins that kills whenever he touched it and it might be something to do with my previous issues with my knees but this came all of the sudden. For now I am on pain meds every 4 hours and ice a lot. I'll go in tomorrow for treatment and then biking is what he said. He didn't want to try anything else because it was so tender. I'm feeling really upset. My mom thinks I am too tired something about "burning too many candles"...idk what to give up though. I don't really have a choice right now.

ran with aubrey in the morning.

homecoming week is killing me

ran by myself cuz I was having a little melt down and didn't want to draw attention to myself. I just need to make it through this week. running on very little sleep makes me super emotional.

nice run and striders before watching the varsity girls kick butt! I screamed so loud! I am so happy to see them race so well. Coach talked about how they are good examples and I really do look up to them and all the hard work and dedication they put in.

I feel happier about this race. I pushed harder then I have the last couple... I was so tired though. Such a long week and only 3's. I'm trying to be positive and just be happy at the fact I ran hard. however, I looked at my card and it is still 5 minutes slower then my PR. I guess I just pictured my senior year being a little different. I want to feel sucessful.

AM: 3

PM: 5.5

I asked if I could do my workout in the afternoon. I wanted to run with girls I am actually racing with and are my speed...turns out none of them do the workout anyway so that was a fail. I was super frustrated. I feel alright about the workout..it wasn't awesome. It was the first one back in 2 weeks so at least I'm able to do them. Guess I'll just go back to running them with varsity in the mornings.

Being on time to practice..2 days in a row- holla! Funny warm-up haha :)

Nicole got a noise bleed on the way back so that slowed us down a bit. Already felt a worn out which is dumb cuz I have been trying really hard to eat and go to bed earlier.

AM: I was so darn nervous for the michigans. I woke up in a panic a couple times during the early morning thinking I was gonna be late haha but alas we made it on time. I feel really very happy about it! Coach says that is the best I have run in a long time which is exactly what I needed to hear to keep pushing. It was both horrid and awesome to do it all on the track. I liked knowing exactly where I was the whole time and keep myself from giving up cuz everyone was right there. I got B standard again...feels good to hit it again. Sophomore year feels like a life time ago. Over all a good experience!

PM: Had a nice 3 miler and talked with Chancie- she is really passionate and I think she will be doing some awesome things! Did my 400's with Erin and I prolly should have pushed them harder. I regret it now but I was mentally tired from the day and wasn't focused.

Team dinner was fun.. sad to be missing a bunch of people who didn't come.

Days like today I remember why I love XC and how good it feel to put in the work to feel successful! XC FOREVER

Home sick today

Cedar race...Poor coach roberts, he deals with a lot of tears from me. It just hit me on the way home that I am almost done.. forever.  I had a little melt down because xc has not been what I hoped it would be.  I love it..I really do but sometimes I forget why I am running.  It is hard when my time is almost 5 minutes slower then I've run before.  I am trying to just be happy with the accomplishments I get in the present but I can't seem to let go of the past.  I just want to feel successful before it is over and I am running out of time.